Dependability..

 

Dependability can be kind of scary. When you know people depend on you, you want to be very dependable and do everything you can for them when they need you. But what if you aren't there when they need you most? Then they start losing faith and trust in you. However, if you come through for them then you're looked at as extremely trust worthy and a good friend, and they become even more dependent on you. I love when my friends and family depend on me and I'm able to come trough for them. It makes me feel really good when they're happy :). I'm very much independent for many things, but I definitely depend on friends and family for things as well. Especially family. I know what it's like to be let down or flaked on so I try my best to avoid doing that to people I'm close with. You learn who you can find dependability in and you avoid the ones who lack in that department. 

I AM THEE WORST PLANNER EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My middle name is literally Procrastinater Maximus. That's a lie but it does suit me quite well. I will push things off till the very last minute. For example, I'm writing this post less then a half hour before class. My rooms never clean, nor is my car and I'm always rushed. I hate it!!!!! I wish I was able to just do things in a timely manner but I just can't. My life is backwards half the time. My priorities are all screwed up. Instead of homework being at the top of my list it's at the very bottom. I work and go to school constantly.... The only days i get off of work are school days and all I want to is rest. I need to just force myself to do my homework, clean my room and organize my life, but I get lazzzzzzzy..... I'd rather hang out with friends then deal with my obligations. I always tell myself, "Oh don't worry about it now. You'll get to it later." Well later either never comes or it smacks me in the face and causes extreme stress. Luckily I can work under pressure but it's not good for me. I really want to get my life in check so that I'm not worrying about what needs to be done or stressing out cause iI can't find something cause it's barried in my room.

ANY SUGGESTIONS???? I've tried making lists but i just forget about them.